Dooley,
This morning I woke out of a dream of you. You showed up at my door beaten and bloody, and I let you in and cleaned your wounds.
You wandered around my place, and even in my dream, we were never in the same place at the same time for long, though we were both trying to find ways to seduce each other and be alone again.
Finally, you came to me, wrapped me in your arms and smiled as you whispered, "About time." and I curled into your embrace with a sigh, just as I curled into my pillow with a sigh, waking myself up.
I laid there dazed for a minute, wondering why after all this time I would have a dream about you, and the tears slid from my eyes as I whispered your name.
After all this time...you...
I still think about you and dream about you and when things get horrible, you are still the one that I want to come hold me and make it all better.
You.
Still you hold the most of my heart, secretive even to me in my asprirations for us...because...I guess...I still harbor hope that there could one day be an us...again.
You. After all these years, it's still you. You are still the one I most desire more than anybody, even more than Swiz, though I haven't seen your face in years.
You.
I still love you, baby...I've kept my promise all these years.
You.
I will miss you always.
Still loving you,
Charmin