Swiz,
You have been on my mind so heavy these past few days. All I think about is your hands on me...all over...inside, under, on...everywhere. I think of you and feel sickly apprehensive, because I wonder how you will react when I tell you I can't be yours anymore.
I wonder IF you'll react when I tell you I'm not yours anymore.
I plan on telling you over the phone...holding my breath as you react...wondering if you'll still want to come and see me...
to either say goodbye...or to ask to give us a try.
And I...honestly don't know what I would say...to either one.
I love you...that has never changed. What's changed is me needing someone to love me back. And he does. He wants all of me. He wants forever with me. I am his future.
And though I have reservations and fears...how could I possibly say no to that?
Not even for you.
Forlorn,
Thea