Swiz,
Funny how when I wanted you so bad it hurt to breathe, you didn't want me.
You told me you cared for me and then I told you I loved you and then you were gone.
And then you were back.
Angry because I seemed changed and I didn't fall all over you and get all doe eyed and gooey. Pissed because I didn't say I missed you and you had to ask it...only to get a stare in reply.
Because this time, I didn't miss you and this time I wasn't going to call you and this time I was ready to walk away and you felt it. You knew it...and that's why you came seeking me out and got pissed when you knew that your spell was fading.
Maybe it's only because Dooley is back in my life or maybe it's because I finally got sick of your shit or maybe I realized I am worth way much more than you are giving me. I don't know what happened. I just know that I don't need validation from you anymore, and all you will be...if you will still be anything...is some dick I call up when I am feeling lonely...like I am only some ass to you.
It's sad because I still love you and you had to chance to love me but you blew it. It's sad because you no longer occupy my thoughts like you once did.
It's sad because things change, and not always for the better. I may be better off without you, but you'll never be better off without me loving you like I did.
And what's really sad is that you are too fucking stupid to realize that.
No Longer Your Slave,
Thea